Apologies, Living Wide faithful. I know I’ve been absent these past few weeks, which reminds me, I need to update my bio because the reasons for my truancy are both very good. First, I’m writing again!! YAY!! I have been trucking along on the manuscript for my second book, tentatively titled “Perfect.”
Wait, second book? Where’s your first book? I’m glad you asked about that. See, my first book was a project I started in 2002, one year post-college. It was a tale I returned to several times over the course of the years, and I was pretty happy with it until 2008 when I decided to rewrite all the parts that I had finished from a completely different point of view. Why? I don’t remember really, but it definitely set me back and led to four more years of starting and stopping. I also can’t tell you why I couldn’t just get it together and finish the first draft, but after a while, I had to admit to myself that things weren’t working. It had been nearly 10 years and still no book. Late last year, I made the conscious decision to admit that I’d failed. That my first book wasn’t the story I needed to write in this moment.
Accompanying that decision was a batch of my soul searching over the past couple of months, during which I realized something pretty important… I want to follow my dreams. I know that’s something everyone says, but few actually do. Well, I think you’ve realized by now, if I am anything, I am the follow-through-girl. I’m also a little bit crazy and daring (hello, quitting my job). So I decided to do the ultimate wakadoo thing and have faith in myself. Faith that whether I would be published or not, whether people liked the story I had to tell or not, I was going to write a book.
I picked up one of the ideas I had filed away and started to play with it around October of last year. And bam, I was writing again. I wrote, and I wrote, and I wrote, and then I stopped for grad school finals, and then I wrote again. Oh, did I mention that’s the other reason? Grad school? Like I said I’m a little nutty… new job, grad school and writing my first/second novel all at the same time. But I digress…. I finally found my story, and I promised myself, even if it kills me, I will finish it and someone, I don’t know who or how many, will get to read it.
Now that you know the why, let’s get to the fun part. I’ve decided to challenge myself even more. Again, what is she thinking?!? I know, but roll with it would you? So every day in the month of April I am going to post an inspirational song that is Living Wide-themed, and hopefully will encourage you all to follow your dreams too. I’m calling it the Soundtrack for Successful Failure. I will also accept submissions for songs that make you want to stop living small, break out of your box, and chase the horizon. I can’t wait take this journey with you all! Who’s bringing the snacks?