Several years ago, I made a New Year’s resolution to stop making New Year’s resolutions. Like most, I never kept mine for long, and I started to hate the idea of making a promise to myself that I never intended to keep. So, I gave up the practice and opted instead to resolve that I would follow through and accomplish goals as they became necessary in my life.
This year, I’m making an exception. This year, I resolve to open myself up to joy. To live wide, I’ve realized you have to be as open as you are aware. Sure, you can be aware of a “Why not?” opportunity, but you won’t fully learn from it unless you are open to what it has to teach you.
I think the reason a regular occurrence of joy has eluded me is because truly experiencing joy requires a willingness to abandon all restraint. Restraint is the polar opposite of joy, and leaning toward restraint has always been my comfort zone. But, it is a new year, and it is two months after I decided to pursue the idea of living wide. Now is not the time to gravitate toward what makes me feel safe. Now is the time to ask the question, “What do I want out of my life?”
In this moment it is joy. I want to do things that bring me joy. I want to be a joy to others. And I want to feel the effervescence of joy as much as possible in 2012. I’m not sure exactly what this will look like, but as I open up to joy and pursue a life of living wide, I’ll make sure to chronicle my encounters here.
Day One of 2012: I am open to the joy of new beginnings, and I gifted myself the joy of perfectly purple fingernails.
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